Lazily, he slumped into his bed and hit face first into the pillow. The soft fluffy cushion comforted him and made him feel more at ease. The bickering noises, the uncomfortable feelings and the poor containment over the emotions clearly upseted him to the very soul.
"You love her don’t you?"
With a deep sigh he replied
"Why are you asking that question now? Is it necessary?"
"Just answer it."
"Yes. Yes I did."
"Were you ever in love in the first place? You barely knew her."
"You don’t need a reason to love."
"You know what I mean. How do you know you were in love in the first place? Not some pathetic mistaken emotion or a lust thrill?"
He turned around and stared at the empty white ceiling above him. Slowly closing his eyes and muttering back.
"I know because I never wanted her body for sex or as a squeeze toy. I know because I never looked at somebody for so long with only admiration and overwhelming happiness spilling out from me. I know because she was the first thing I thought about in the morning and the last thing I look forward to in my dreams at night. I know because I felt those dark clouds in my conscious just blow away when i see her radiating smile. I know because I could gaze into her eyes for hours and still not grow tired of that opulence her mind produces. I know because she could talk for hours on a million things and I will remember with such clarity like how she loves nature, how she hates cockroaches and the dentist and how she just enjoys a good book. I know because I am willing to receive her sorrows and sadness and anger and frustration without a second thought. I know because she makes me smiles like a fool even when I am the loser there.I know because I could never lie to her no matter how much I try. I know because I actually cared for her even after she was in a relationship. I know because I still talk to her about everything and anything despite having to know she is someone’s else and still smile. I know because I only cared about her happiness, even if it meant losing mine. I know because I still think about her all the time and I will feel happy for her as long as she is doing fine and living her life the way she wants. Even if she never remembers my name or who I am anymore. I know because I just gave it my all and I still want to give her more than that. I know because she deserves better than me and I willingly let her go without a fight. I know. I just know."